a long time situation

hi udi my laptop is english so thats the reson i write in english. i am 44 and from the ege off 28 i am living in this hell called depretion and angzaiety actually its ruined my life could not build anything or to function normally for so long.....the problem is that i am inteligent and nicelooking and couse off this thing i just dont functionning well in life i am taking antidepresant drugges on a daily bassis ,just the strengh to live is not there stongly like others....and been there for so long also made me so tird....dont know why got it and why cant bee normal or what ever u may callit......its the feeling off been frozen in time so......dont even know what to ask u just wanted to start a dialog thankes for lissening gali