I need help and advice - you can answer in Hebrew

Hi, my name is Diana, I type in English because my computer doesn't have Hebrew letters. I'm an Israeli student in the U.s and I study health science. I live with my boyfriend who is 36 years old (12 years older than me). we live together 3 years already. Our problem began few months ago. I have great dreams for my future and I'm working on establishing them. He is 36, and never went to get education. He is very smart and mature, but lately we have not much to talk about. I study very hard and I don't have much time for mutual activities. He works till very late hours and comes home tired. When we meet in Israel our relationship were great and booming and beating, but now we're like a married couple after 50 years of marriege. I know that I am causing the troubles, because I pressure him to go and get a diploma. I see other guys that study and I feel I could talk with more interesting people. But I love my boyfriend so much that even though we tried 2-3 times to break up- it lasted 2 days. I have to add that he is not even close to all the male descriptions I read in this forum. He is not cheap (bought me a car - and he doesn't have a penny now) He makes me coffee and gives me time to study and my space, he is funny and handsome, and helpfull. He never help others for interest and he does everything from the heart. I'm afraid that if I brake up with him I won't find anyone better. And yet, I am only 24... I have so much things I want to do and I want him to keep up with me. Our age gap keeps me afraid of him getting older faster than I am. and if we will have children it will be in his 40's... Please help me to decide. I'm afraid to stay alone in this big country where I don't have friends or family, but I have to continue school and he is helping me with everything in my life. Thank you, please respond, in english or hebrew... I'm going crazy! I stress a lot, and have many headaches.

Thank you so much for replying my message. Well, we do everything together, we respect each other and support each other a lot. We like to go out to eat a good meal. But he mentioned that something had changed, and I don't surprise him anymore, and I don't do all the funny sexy things I was doing before. But I have no time what so ever. When we meet we both very tired to surprise and to make love. The only time we do those things is on the weekend. You've asked me what am I afraid of, I think that I'm afraid of many things. I'm afraid that my children will have an old father, I'm afraid that in few years he won't be able to find a good job where he won't have to work from morning till night and he won't have time for his family. What do I contribute to the relationship? I'm not sure right now. I'm so deep in school work I dont have time for myself. I don't have enough hours a day for all my studying. I'm keeping a very high grade which is very important for me in order to get into university. When you asked me hod do I feel I contribute to my relationship, I couldn't think of anything good I do for him. I just don't have the time. I wish we could have studied together, or he wouldn't have to work all day. I am probably the one who needs to change. I should give him more attention during the week, I just don't know how to do it when I'm so busy all the time. You asked about our "Seder yom" well, we both wake up at 7-8, I go to school, he goes to work. I come from school at around 4 in the noon. He works till 11 at night. I work 4 days of the week, and on the days I don't work I study home after school. We meet at 11-12 at night... and every day is the same. It's frustrating. I wanted him to look for another job, but he keep saying that he works in order for us to be able to pay rent, go out and buy clothes. He got no time for himself. He wanted to go and study english better, he want's to go to the gym, he want's to meet with friends and drink beer, but he don't have time! I tell him all the time that we will figure a way to pay bills if he will find a job of 6-7-8 hours a day instead of 15 hours a day. I work and what I earn can pay half rent and a little bit of spending. We could save for everything together. (I forgot to mention that he works in a restaurant where his brother is the shef, and he always tells me that he have to help his brother) I just feel that he afraid to try something new, a new job. Afraid of looking for a new job. Indeed it is not easy right now in L.A, and people don't hire employees. SO what can we do? He knows how I feel and I know how he feels. We talk about everything. I just feel that if things won't change, I will leave eventually, even if I don't want to. I'm confused and I don't know what to do and how to change this situation.